Just wash it down with alcohol.
Yes, Teays Vein, that is an splendid idea! I have been struggling with music lately; that it doesn't speak to me as it once did, as it should. Where did it go? Ah yes, I know. Abruptly taken from me ... because I shared it. But not this. Not standing two feet from the blaring speaker as Civilian Street, Teays Vein, Sirface, Clear Grey, & others pounded out the sweetest sounds my ears have taken the pleasure of absorbing in so very long. The beat. The lyrics. The lights. The drums, bass, guitar, vocals, keyboards at times. Everything to take my mind & soul to a new level, returning ME.
More importantly tonight, there was no alcohol. No liquid poison. Merely the remedy of a heart beat controlled ... replaced, even ... by the throbbing melodies funneled into my ears. So loud that it completely drowns out every unwanted thought and memory.
Between sets, April & I went to find the members of Clear Grey & adorn them with compliments of their extraordinary performance. We managed to find their gorgeous bass player, Emily Rogers, and purchased a cd from her. April found her first & had engaged in conversation while I checked out the crowd & bounced to the beat in my head, oblivious to life. When something in the conversation caught my attention, I abrubtly turned to listen. Seriously, this chick didn't even finish her sentence or take a breath, she look at me & exclaimed, "You have exquisite eyes!" Sweet!
"You can be messy & still be beautiful" - from my best friend.
During the evening April & I had many conversations, as usual. One conversation in particular has stuck with me today, and hopefully the rest of my life. Talking about relationships & their downfalls, our struggles, life's misery. She has made the comment on numerous occasions that she wants a partner in life with my qualities, a male me. Her comment last night... "you & I don't have the same views on everything, nor do we have the same things in common, but we agree to let each other just be who we are, no expectations..."
That line caught me. NO EXPECTATIONS.
The Tao of unsaying
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